LONG TIME NO POST

Why has it been so long since I've made a post on here? Was I really that busy that I had no time to jump on here and do what I do best?! I feel like my life has been so preoccupied, I've been losing my motivation for things sometimes and I feel as though it gets harder and harder to live from paycheck to paycheck. There's so much to pay for it's like we spend our money faster than we can make it! I hope to continue to post more. I have been very busy working in my basement. I'm trying to finish it and basically improve everything better than the previous people that used to live here, they did a shitty job. For more to come.... to be continued.

I'm A Little Drunk And What Am I Saying

Okay,
so I know it's been a while since I posted something on here. I know I could start to post more, but I guess I never got around to take the time to post anything. I've just been getting too busy and never think this will work out as I want it to. As of right now I'm drunk as fuck and have a buzz going on. I'm trying to type the best I can. So far I keep correcting myself because apparently everytime I type I keep hitting the letter next to my other fat fingers! It's okay. All I have to tell myself is that I'm doing a good job and I'll be fine. I drank a few Budweisers along with some Mike's Hard Lemonades and Crown Royal so my head is going crazy! I just feel like I'm having a good time. I love my life and the little family I have with my beautiful and amazing girlfriend Aileen and our little one Aveline. I know I should get married to Aileen and trust me I really do very badly, but when it comes to it I don't have the money, but I want to get married so bad! This is all I have to say for now. I'm just a little drunk I can't really think of what to type right now. I'll get back to you all! Thanks

It'd Be Nice To Have That Dough Huh?

You see this car above shown here? Yeah I know it's very nice and I would love to own one of these for myself and have it as a personal recreational driving time, but... unfortunately I ain't got that kind of money, nor will I ever think I will own a car of such beauty and power. This my friends is the Audi R8 v10. They have a v10 Plus which I'm even more interested in and would love to get my hands on this. Where I work right now, I would never have this kind of money to be able to save for this. Don't get me wrong, I would try so hard to but I doubt it and I would always end up losing my money to having to pay my bills and I'm basically back to having little to no money because I know I suck at saving my hard earned money. I work for Jaguar communications out of my hometown Owatonna, MN and it's not too bad of a job. I enjoy what I do as a Labourer. My responsibilities as well as the other guys alongside are to put the fiber optic lines in the ground and we feed service to whoever is getting hooked up to our data such as phone, TV, or internet plans. For $17 an hour I am currently doing ok... but would always love to be making more and actually see myself succeed big time. I'm just a big dreamer. I always keep thinking of ways of what I could do to possibly make that big money and be able to buy nice things like this Audi, or pay off my newly owned house that I just acquired. It's going to take some time and thinking... thinking about how I can acquire such large amounts of money in a good way. I would really love to see myself successful and for my family I'm about to start. My girlfriend and I have a little girl on the way. She's about 29 weeks right now and we're getting very excited to see our little Aveline Marcelina Westphall. I would also love to be engaged and then married to my one and only Aileen. I love her to death and would love to give her everything I can! Well, until next time. This is all I have for now in this little rant.

ADDICTION

Have you ever craved pop(soda) so much that just once after you finish your first one, you try to go for another? Well... that's exactly how I feel. It's not that bad, but like fuckkkk literally after I finish the last drop of my first can I forget that I had just finished it and so I'll be sitting here on my computer, I go to grab the can as if I'm taking another drink and I discover that I drank it all and now this would be my second can. I finished my second can after drinking my first can like 15 minutes prior and now I'm already thinking about my third can! Oh my god I just can't get enough of my Pepsi product. Thank you to Pepsi Co. for getting me hooked on your delicious and amazing caffeine. Mmmm so good.... giving me headaches and shit after I haven't had it for a little while. Then once I go to drink some again then my headaches will start to go away. Damn it's amazing what a caffeine addiction can do to you... Can't wait to see how the month of June will go without having any caffeine. Great.

Just Something

Life is getting tough.

Life is never easy.

Life is nothing but a fuck in the ass.

It screws you over and you fail.

The more you fail, the deeper you are of getting out.

I honestly hate this.

I hate how our generation is becoming.

Way too many thirsty hoes or "thots" (thirsty hoe over there).

I just can't take this anymore.

I'm not liking the way this shit is playing out.

It's as if I want to give up on life and not even give a shit who will miss me.

Well I would miss the ones I love like family and girlfriend.

This is just the worst time of my life.

I know though that somehow I'll make it through this and with my girlfriend by my side,

I should be alright.

My Shit Of A Life

You know what really sucks? That I stooped so low and started doing some shit I shouldn't have, but I stopped now before anything could of gotten out of hand. I literally have only about $300 to my name and that's sad. My mom and step-dad are going to be moving out of this house by probably April so I have until that time to get into a good job and start making some good money before it's too late and I don't want to get fucked over. I want to be able to get my own place and have enough money instead of drug dealing or any of that stupid shit, because that's what this stupid fucking town is all about and I don't want to stoop down that low. I have my girlfriend by my side, she said she would help me out with any troubles. So I'm happy I have her!!! Other than that.. yeah, so I have about three months until I start to try and find my own place to get into before it's too late. My mom is supposed to be leaving today of Sunday sometime, but she didn't tell me when. I guess I'll just wait and see. I just hate this so much right now, not knowing what to do. I just don't want to be fucked over.

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I Should Just Stop

Sometimes I wonder to myself, why even bother putting up shit on this site, who is going to see it? That's right... No one, because literally I have nothing good to show or even do. I always wish I could be as great as the kids on vine or some crap like that, but clearly I don't have that kind of talent. Really I don't even know what my talent would be... Just pointless. Sorry I'm out.